As the ill-fated television actress would Pratyusha Bannerjee’s boyfriend Rahul Raj Singh accused of abeting her suicide,turned  32 on Sunday he got the best possible birthday gift. The Supreme Court upturned the plea to cancel his bail.

This means for now, Rahul is  a free man and ready to put up a brave fight to prove his innocence. In an explosive interview he tells Subhash K Jha he is all set to let the truth about his innocence come  out.For starters Rahul has filed criminal defamation cases against the three friends of Pratyushawho accused him of mistreating her.

Rahul, the honourable Supreme Court has refused to cancel you bail. This is a big reprieve for you?

Sir, I couldn’t hope for a better birthday  gift. I know it’s Pratyusha who arranged this respite for me from  Heaven.I didn’t want to PROVE my innocence.I knew I was innocent.I was the victim. I wanted the truth to come out on its own.People who hardly knew the truth about my relationship with Pratyusha lashed out at me. I kept quiet. If I had retaliated it would have seemed like a feeble attempt to defend myself. Wohbol rahe hainmain chor hoon, main bolta main chor nahin.Kya phayda hota(they said I am thief, I’d have said I am not what purpose would it have served?).

Why were her friends so keen to attack you?

I don’t know why I was so  important to their lives. They couldn’t bear the fact that I had made a place for myself in Mumbai. Being my colleagues they couldn’t understand why they couldn’t achieve the same.

Who are these friends?

Kamya Punjabi claims to be Pratyusha’s friend. But everyone knows they had a fight over Karan Patel.And if Pratyusha’s call log for the entire year was checked  there might be just one or two calls.

You are saying her friends suddenly popped out of nowhere to express concern?

I am saying, the power of the media is immense. If  the media doesn’t support it even Sultan wouldn’t get a good opening.Now I’ve taken strong legal action against three of Pratyusha’s supposed friends who made wild allegations against me.

Who are these friends and what action have you taken?

Leena Dias, Vikas Gupta and Kamya Punjabi…I’ve filed a criminal defamation case against them. I am  not asking for money. But they will have to explain their allegations in court.

What about those girls who went on record accusing you of defrauding them?

If you name them I’ll answer their allegations.I don’t know who they are. Where were they for five years since that’s when I’m supposed to have wronged them?What they said against me couldn’t be important because no one remembers their names let along their allegations.

What about Saloni Sharma?

She is my partner in an events management company .She’d meet me for business reasons.Stories about her and me are untrue. Now I’ve to be very careful. More people know me now than they did before. I’ll be linked with any girl I am seen with .

For the record you are single right now?

Of course! I don’t know what will happen in the future. Zindagi toh jeena hai.I was on anti-depressants until  recently.

Looking back at the whole experience how do you feel?

I constantly play the whole tragedy in my mind trying to figure out where I went wrong.Suicide is a very cowardly thing to do. Did she for a minute think what I’ve gone through or what my parents have gone through? Do you know what I’ve gone through?

I’ve gone through hell. I wasn’t given a chance to grieve for Pratyusha. I had to deal with all the rubbish that was heaped on me, plus a 9-year old son who never existed(laughs mirthlessly).

Where did this son come from?

I want to ask Kamya Punjabi that. She’d know. I am sure she pays my son’s school fees. I have no  clue about the son.I went through the worst torture because of Pratyusha’s overnight friends.I can’t seem to understand  what I did wrong. Maybe  it was punishment for something I did in my previous life.But I am born strong. And this whole experience  has made me stronger.

Do you miss her?

(Quiet) That goes without saying. But I’ve realized one has to keep living. I can’t die with her. She was in a  lot of depression. I helped her and supported her as much as I could.Lekin aap vidhi ka vidhan ka badal nahinsakte hain .Even those who go on holy pilgrimages get killed on the way.I feel there must be a reason for what I had to go through.

Why was Pratyusha depressed?

It was her financial mess that landed her in a depression. At a very young age she earned  5-6 crores. Since she didn’t know how to handle her finances she handed over her earnings to her parents. When she asked back for her hard-earned money they said there was nothing.

What do you mean? Her parents spent all her money?

Sir, she had a loan of  lakhs and lakhs to pay. Her EMIs had not been paid for months. How much of this kind of financial pressure can a girl of her age take  on her head?All the loans that she had taken were in Pratyusha’s names , not in her parent’s name. Because her parents didn’t earn anything.

So you’re saying her parents blew up her money and left her with all these loans to pay off?

They own a 5-bedroom home in Jamshedpur. Pratyusha who earned 4-5 crores doesn’t even own ajhopda(shack) . She didn’t have one  piece of jewellery for herself.

What did her parents do with their daughter’s money?

Aiyyashi(pleasuring). Her father used to drink from morning till night. A private financier Chirag Lalwani  lentPratyusha Rs 10 lakhs at an interest-rate of 10 percent. This was before she went into Bigg Boss. She got 30-35 lakhs in Bigg Boss and yet she couldn’t pay back the loan. Nor were her EMI instalments paid back. Her car was purchased on loan. She had personal loans amounting to 20-25 lakhs. Even her beautician was not paid off.

So are those loans going to be written off now?

Sir, how can they be written off? According to the law the parents have to repay the loans.And when they can afford to take me to the Supreme Court I am sure her parents have the money to repay loans.I have a message on Pratyusha’s phone from her mom saying Pratyusha must pay her EMI since these creditors are coming to the mom’s doorstep.

This is shocking?

I never thought I’d be discussing Pratyusha’s finances. But God has strange plans for us.

What are your future plans?

I want to work hard. In spite of what has happened I love the city of Mumbai. I don’t want to ever leave this place.After Pratyusha’s death I haven’t visited my hometown Ranchi even once. I don’t want people  to say I’ve run away.I fought my battle from right here in Mumbai. Thre police has sealed my house for the last two months. I am staying in a hotel for the last two months  with my father. He has left everything back home to be  with me.

Why did the police seal you home?

No reason was given. They had no right to do so. Contrary  to belief that isn’t Pratyusha’s house. It’s mine.Police has no right to seal my home after doing punch-naama. But the case became so media-centric they wanted to make sure they didn’t do anything that would raise eyebrows .There were allegations of policeRahul se mila hua hai.As it is in the hospital after she died people said I was acting grief-stricken.

Why were people say adamant to prove you guilty?

I has sacked Leena Dias  for incompetence. She used to work in my office. Vikas Gupta wanted to go on NachBaliye with Pratyusha. Kamia Punjabi has some axe to grind.As for Dolly Bindra and Raakhi Sawant I am not even considering them.I’ve sued only the first three from criminal defamation.

Has this experience put you off relationships?

For sure.At least for now. What this experience has taught me is that anything  can happen in life. That your life can turn around in a second. I’ve re-lived the whole experience over and over again in my mind. I never thought I’d one day carry Pratyusha’s lifeless figure to the hospital.I had met her just an hour earlier. An hour later she was gone. I’ve had fights with God. I’ve asked him what he thinks of us human beings.We are nothing  but tools.

What do you say to those who blame you for Pratyusha’s suicide?

I did nothing to provoke her into taking such a drastic step.She was very depressed about her career and mismanaged finances. I used to help her as much as possible.She was maintaining her parents household inJamshedpur and her home in  Mumbai. Two sets of staff, household expenditures , bills…he couln’t take it. I found out about her financial distress  only three months before her death?

So what did you do?

Whatever I could.I gave my share of the fees that we earned for Power Couple to her. I’ve documented proof of this.She stayed in my house. I didn’t stay in her house. If we had fights she could’ve easily broken up since we weren’t married .Why did she continue to stay with me? Why did she party with me days before her death? Why did she order her wedding lehnga if as her so-called friends say, she was unhappy  with me?

What about her friends saying you were physically abusive?

They claim to have a video proof  it. Where  is that video? Why haven’t they shown  it to the court? Prityushahad filed a case against her former boyfriend for physical abuse. If I was violent with her she  could’ve done the same with me.

So you don’t hold yourself responsible in any way for her death?

I’ve done nothing wrong.So I don’t feel guilty. I am not going to spoil my life by feeling  responsible, when I am not.The honourable Supreme Court didn’t spare Sanjay Dutt. If  the honourable courts had any doubts about my innocence they’d have cancelled my bail. 29^th was my birthday. A day later I got this wonderful gift from the courts.

What next?

The fight has just begin.I want to do good work. Let my work speak for me. I am innocent. I have nothing to fear.